update... pondering about things.

i haven't updated in a while and i feel like i should. haha. well, not much has been going on in my life, just school, school, and oh, wait more school.  is it weird that i am ready to leave and move onto a new chapter of my life. i feel more grown up now, but, i feel like high school is pushing me back. who knows. 

this week honestly, has been a boring week.  not much has gone on. i've just been going to school and dealing with this stupid ping pong tournament at school. i just don't understand why our ASB teacher tells me to do my job when there are other people not doing theirs; at least have everyone on the same level. oh well, only several more weeks and i'm out. thank goodness. i don't know what i am doing friday night. i really want to go to the st. francis fair. saturday, i have the fashion show for school... no, i'm not in it. i really look forward to it though. my mom and i always have a wonderful time. 

i think the whole reason that i'm done with school is because i want all of the fun things to happen. for example, prom, grad night and everything else. i'm just done. yes, the senioritis epidemic has reached me. 

oh, and the last thing i wanted to comment on. so, one of my friends' friend (well, actually they are no longer friends) posted a video about her. really? has that what this world has come down to? why can't you just confront somebody? because, seriously, you are just going to make you and your situation a more public one and you're going to end up feeling like the victim even more.  i do think too, that my friend shouldn't have posted the link. she should have just dealt with that on her own. but, whatever it's not my problem. 

i just wonder; is this what social media has come to today, dealing with our issues online? 

just something to ponder about... and i don't mean to hash on those two people. i just think it's interesting. 

"you're bold."

hahha. that's what one of my friends told me after I told her the fact that I would be writing my research paper in one night. well, I guess I am. :)  and honestly, I don't mind. I have 3 pages done right now, and at 7 o'clock I'm starting back up.  Yes, it may be a long night, but, when talking to some friends in college they have told me that they usually have to whip up at least 8 pages for some class. so, why not get the experience now? haha. at first, I felt somewhat overwhelmed, but, now, it's not too bad.  The trick, manipulate your quotes.  If you have good quotes and you're good and making them work... you're basically good to go.  Thank goodness for journalism. Honesty, I probably wouldn't be able to work that out if it wasn't for that class.  All right, back to working on this paper.  

church and prom?

I completely forgot that today was Palm Sunday.  Which is funny, because it's my favorite Eastertime (if that's a word and that makes sense) celebration.  I don't know why though... probably because it's the most interactive one, besides Maunday Thursday... but that involves feet, which isn't as fun. Anyways: if I knew it was Palm Sunday, I would have worn something more appropriate, but at the same time, it wasn't my normal jeans and polo that I would wear if I didn't really care on sundays. 

However, I am looking forward to Easter... why you may ask. No, it's not because of the Easter Bunny or chocolates or the excuse to by a new dress. It's because it's CANDE'S SEASON. Now, I I know you are thinking Can-de season? Do you know how to spell Courtney? Well, I do know how to spell, thankyouverymuch. It's C-and-E season.  Which for me, means Christmas and Easter season.  Last year, John Henry and I made up that name because we always found it amusing to that so many people that we had met at church would only come back for Christmas and Easter.  I know, I know, that's terrible, Courtney, and no very Christian of you.  But, we both find this kind of funny.  At the same time, that's the beauty of Christianity, I think because you can get your daily/weekly dose of Jesus anywhere, you just need to keep a lookout for it. 

Today was nice. Some of the people from my church after ended up getting on the discussion of prom. Which, is always a fun and exciting thing to talk about. There were so many different ages there, and it was nice to chime in with my own experiences.   

well, time to work on the research paper that's due two days from now. ekk. :/

before the research paper

honestly, i'm dreading this whole entire writing of this paper.  i haven't read the book that i'm even researching about. which basically means i'm screwed. but, i need to get it done, and i'll have the drive soon, i know it.  more, importantly, i need to sound like i am typing so my dad doesn't think that i'm not working! haha. 

last night i had a lot of fun.  i went out with my friends to this little place called Lulu's Beehive, i have been there before with my friend Jamie, but this was a more pleasant experience.  i do, however, wish that some of my friends from school would go, because i'm sick of them making fun of us because we are a church group. but, it's the price you pay. 

i did feel like i was the oldest one, which i was, but i started to realize the gap that i was in. the people that are in my youth group haven't even reached the age of 16, but at the same time, they are usually acting like they are.  so, what's a girl to do... when all of your friends seem to depend on other people besides you? maybe, it's just me, and the fact that i just assume that everyone has something to do on a friday night, and i don't even ask them.  who knows. 

just once, i would like to see my friends reach out at school, but i don't do that too, which i used to which is probably why some people think all i can do is talk about myself. maybe that's it, just reach out more to people. crap. why didn't i think about this earlier. that's what we need to do, everyone needs to do, not just me, but everyone... reach out more. 

i also wanted to take the time to say how crappy love really is. seriously, disney makes us think that someday, my prince will come. well, i'm 18, and i'm still waiting for a somewhat-prince to come my way.  i know, i know, you'll tell me, "you're just not looking in the right places." well, someone tell me where to look because apparently i'm freakin' blind.  maybe it's just the fact that we put people up on a pedal-stool. and i don't want to get started on that one. 

i'm going to sponsor one of my friends...

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http://www.etsy.com/shop.php?user_id=6155129

This is my friend Christyn's jewelry site and I love it! I think anyone who is reading out there should check this site out. 

This is my favorite piece: http://www.etsy.com/view_listing.php?listing_id=21456576

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