change?

New York City. Manhattan. Everyone should go there at least once in their lifetime. I miss it so much! I would honestly go back there in a heart beat. If I had enough money, I would just leave everything and move here. Only talk to the people that I wanted to. Just tell the people that I want to be in my life where I am and start COMPLETELY over. Don't worry, I still love LA... and for the most part I will probably live here and die here. But apart of me just wants to get away. Just drop off of the whole West Coast and start over. I always wanted a chance to start over. Yes, I somewhat got that in college, but I want a chance to not be attached to girls from high school that act like middle schoolers, or not have any obligations to family. I want to wake up and live my life. I can't do that in LA. Part of me feels clogged up here. I mean, I guess it would be different if I drove, because then I could go out on my own and explore the city that I call home. But part of me, just wants to run away with my cell phone, credit card, some clothes, my camera and my laptop and find a new place. I don't know where this is coming from at all. I'm not one to want to go off and start a new adventure... but I just want a HUGE positive change in my life and I honestly don't think it's anywhere here in LA. I want to go off and work. Honestly, I would much rather be working in an office and not sitting in a classroom. I remember the first time my mom took me to work, I loved it. Maybe, it's just when you work, it doesn't really matter where you come from, just how you get the job done. I guess, it's the same at school, but it's really not. I would like to say it is, but it isn't. If you're from some private school that is known to have rich kids, everyone labels you with that. If you do well or participate in class the nice pretty boy comes and sits next to you and pretends to be interested in what you are saying, when in reality he couldn't careless. I'm so torn with school and wanting to work. I want to get out of the Valley as much as I love it. I want to start completely over. AND, I mean, completely over. I want someone to say my name without saying that I'm friends with so and so. I want someone to hear of my high school and have no idea where it is and could careless. I want to get away... end of story. Now, the questions are where, how and why do I want to go and get there.