11.21.2008. 4.35.

well. today was interesting. i had my first panic attack. i think it was just that i had a bunch of things going on and it was kinda driving me crazy. someone had told me something that kinda upset me. and i am one of those people that doesn't like to bottle things in. i was in a rush to get things done for asb. and i can't stand that. i don't think people really understand that i truly love doing anything involving asb. really i do. i swear that's why i go to school everyday. i know i should probably change my outlook on school, but for right now, i'm not going to. 

today we had to turn in some stuff for college for the counseling department. i didn't have enough time. i feel like me being a prep is a lot. i'm stuck in this pool of 294 kids, well, 293, and we are supposed to always do better than everyone else. i mean, with prep 800+ kids applied for becoming freshmen and almost 300 of us got in. the pressures of prep are difficult. i feel like people are constantly judging me.